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2008-07-25T10:18:00.000-07:00

hey people :) you know wat, i'm really really sad. noone here to comfort me right now :( i really damn damn sad, i need someone so freaking badly. the worst part is, all my SISTERS is watching BATMAN now without me :( they know i so sad also never msg me, only know how to watch movie. i know la i didn't msg them. but ..... haih. i donno le. can someone come comfort me ? coz i really need someone so so badly now. n i miss my baby. damn saddenning. i miss you so much. you're my everything la. omg -__- but i know, you don love me nomore. your feeling towards me has really change, you really don love me as much as you do anymore, you don sayang me like how you always do, talk to me, manja me, pujuk me etc etc. now, you're all just being cold, i don blame you, i'm just a lousy person:) but seriosuly, i've never play with ur feelings b4, i really give you the best tat i can ever give, just to put up a bright smile on ur face every single day. as you always say, it's not worth crying for you, but i tell you, it's worth every single second being with you. you're the one n only tat can brighten up my darkess moment:) i miss you so so much. noone can ever replace you from my heart<3>

you're all i wan, you're all i need, you're everything <3

2008-04-29T07:49:00.000-07:00

yup, i'm back to the shit hole once again. i just got home yesterday. and yup, life here is as boring as usual. i cant walk properly now cos i just did KETUK KETAMPI for a 100times few days ago and now my leg and ass is killing me. i even have problem wearing my pants now :) lol. but it's worth going through all those pain to finally get to talk back to someone :) anyways, back to the topic, i miss everyone in kl. especially mandy, su, abby n sarny lar. those sluts is part of me. i really cant live without them. but the one i miss most is my little sweet potato. hahaa. and horny too :)
i really hope i can go back soon. so i can get to see you again. i miss hugging you. and i miss ur smell. LOL. and i really miss everything we've all been through. anyways, hope to see everyone soon. mwakz<3>

2008-02-17T04:36:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday to ME

i'm finally 18. I had a really great birthday surprise from all my mandy, su , abby, sarny pin n all :) it was seriously great. it's the first time in my life someone actually gave me a surprice party. though it held in Mc'd, but i really do appreciate it. and now, i'm actually alone in the cyber cafe at 7 something on my birthday. i think i've a curse. LOL. but i'm usedd to it. and i've lost someone really important to me today, on my birthday itself. haih. said i always said, birthday sucks:) well i'm used to it. thankz everyone:) loves.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME, PAO YU :)

2007-11-22T01:22:00.000-08:00

yau suen, what you say was right. they don care bout us. we're not what they want all this while. i'll be back soon yau suen. hold on and wait till i'm back there. so we can continue our great plan.
hope you're alright now. and seems like the girls is having lots of fun without us around them. yauuu sueeennnnnn...

:(

2007-11-15T07:41:00.000-08:00

i totally screw my sejarah and maths paper -_____- arghh.

anyways, yeah. just wanna know i really love you, i really know how would you feel right now. just hope you wont think that i'm bullshitting and all. and the most important thing is i'm not having something on with someone or something lar. i really do love you though. i've never played with ur feelings b4. anywayz, i can't wait to see you. love you. mwahzx <3 December is the time that i'll only get to see you and spend all my time with you. cant wait cant wait..

* it wasn't meant to be like this, we were never meant to fail.

2007-11-14T05:26:00.000-08:00

Today is the first time you've scream at me like that. sorry for making you mad all the time. guess you're not gonna call me back. i'll be waiting for your call.

:'(

2007-11-13T03:37:00.001-08:00

'Cessmandy

it has been ages since i talk to you and see ya. today finally you get to come online. i'm really happy that i get to see you and talk to you. been missing you tonnes, and everyone in kl lar. really hope spm ends asap, so i'll get to go back to kl. sej paper today really sucks. i think i'm gonna freaking fail lar. pftsss. anywayz, miss you ppl lar. mwakzx <3

*i really miss you hair in my face, and the way your innocence taste.

2007-11-08T02:24:00.000-08:00

my feelings for you now is so darn deep, i never had this kinda feeling for anyone else bofore, maybe there's something about you that attracts me. i dont know whether you know i like you and all or not, probably you would think that i'm just playing with your feelings and all, but i really do love you. i know you've done a lot, A LOT of BAD mistake, but i'll keep on forgiving you. though my heart really ache damn badly when you do all those things, but it's okay. cause i really love you till i can't afford to lose you, i can't live without you. i want to be with you always. all this while you've been hiding stuff from me and all, lying to me and crap, is it that hard to just tell me the truth? i just want to know about the truth. dont hide stuff from me, dont keep on lying to me anymore. i've told you, as long as you tell me the truth, i'll never get mad at you, maybe i will, a little, though i'll be sad and all, but i'm glad that you did come and confront to me and tell me what's going on. i'll never ever do something to hurt your feelings. i'll never cheat on you, i'll never lie, i'll never disobey your orders, i just want to be with you forever. no matter what you did wrong in your past, i'll always forgive you, no matter what you've lie to me last time i'll also always forgive you. but please just know your limits from now onward, what ever you had promise me, please keep the promises okay. i really love you. i really do. i'm missing you tonnes, i misses your touch, lips, smell and all. hope you'll feel the same way too.

keep holding on, cause you know we'll make it through.

2007-11-06T12:12:00.000-08:00

it seems like you need me no more. hope you're happy off this way.
you'll be fine without me.

you're on my heart just like a tattoo. <3

2007-11-06T07:25:00.000-08:00

i'm feeling kinda sad know. i don even know why. emo-ing for some freaking reason. anywayz i don even know why i'm blogging now. i'm just gonna continue listening to my music.

i miss you.

you're all i want, you're all i need, you're everything <3

2007-10-05T01:41:00.000-07:00

Dear lie
You suck
You said you could
fix anything
Instead I'm fucked
You made things
even worse for me
If I had balls I'd
tell you get away
from me
Guess I'm not smart
I let you unnerve me
I let you control me
Afraid the truth
would hurt me
When it's you that
hurts me more

Get outta my mouth
Get outta my head
Get outta my mind
Stop puttin'
words in my head
Get outta my mouth
You're nothing but trouble
Get outta my life
Get out of me
Out of me (out of me)
Out of me
Out of me lie
Lie lie lie lie

Dear lie
You're dumb
You think you've got
the best of me
You think you won
Misread my vulnerability
I've got your walls
Now get the hell
away from me
I've learned your art
Won't let you unnerve me
Won't let you control me
The truth will only free me
And your lies won't hurt no
No more

Get outta my mouth
Get outta my head
Get outta my mind
Stop puttin'
words in my head
Get outta my mouth
You're nothing but trouble
Get outta my life
Get out of me
Out of me (out of me)
Out of me
Out of me lie
Lie lie lie lie

Lie lie
I've got
Your walls
Now get the hell
away from me
I learned your art
Won't let you unnerve me
Wont' let you control me
The truth will only free me
And your lies won't hurt no
No more

Get outta my mouth
Get outta my head
Get outta my mind
Stop puttin'
words in my head
Get outta my mouth
You're nothing but trouble
Get outta my life
Get out of me
Out of me (out of me)
Out of me
Out of me lie
Lie lie lie lie

Lie lie
Dear lie
Lie Lie Lie Lie
Lie Lie
Dear lie

2007-08-03T22:58:00.000-07:00

zoomggg, i just notice that my mum just renovated the house:s

*faints*

2007-08-03T01:37:00.000-07:00

i'm finally back to the shit hole after staying at 2 to 3 months stayin in kl. i can't believe i even left weiih. it's damn saddening. so many ppl cried. *sniff sniff* anyways, it has been real fun hanging around, it has always been fun, tho me and my frens keep doing the same old thing day by day, but yeah. i went to summer splash, it was fun. got to go with all my frens and 'family':] den went UV nation. met damn lotsa people there. went over to yahoo with my frens parents for the first time tho. it was really fun tho over there is all uncle and anuty. hahah. went drinking alot. been bummbing around. play lotsa fooscaball and mahjong. AND I DIDN"T EVEB GET TO MEET UP WITH CRYSTAL CHONG-.- went to sheer 2007. it was real great, dynamites won:] had a nite off at genting too. it was soooo funn czo everyone is there. we drank like no body's business. i've been staying with everyone. and yeah, i stay with one of my fren for like 1month plus. she charge me like hell

used of bed = 20
towel = 5
laundry = 20
used of her car = 10
water = 50
electric = 20
body bath =30
shampoo = 50
phone bill = 20
pillow = 5
bedsheets =10
perfume = 20
toothpaste = 15
comp = 10
ciggiez = 10
comb = 5
her dad's slippers tat i borrowed for like 3 hours-.- = 5
toilet rool = 5

and lots more. :]

i'm too lazyy to blog bout everythin and up loading pics, i'll just continue wen i feel like it.
anyways, missing you ppl out there. take carez. mwakzx<3

btw, i finally got my carr:]

2007-06-28T14:04:00.000-07:00

DONT MIND BOUT THIS POSTT... I'M JUST TALKING BOUT SOEMONE REAL RANDOM.. IT'S UNDER YOUR EXPECTATION ...

whyy, whyyyy?? why do you have to hide stuff from me.? why can't you just tell me straight to my face? is it so darn hard?? it's better for you to tell me den i found it out by myself. i can't explain how i feel bout you now. i can't even explain why coz there's no explanation for it.. i do like you, but i don even know whether do i really love you. maybe it's coz i HAven't forget bout our past or wat so ever you have done or lie to me. or maybe i've love someone more than you . i noe i've been kinda mean to you sometimes, but how bout you? i just wish tat u're happy. i don don wan you to keep hiding stuff from me, i wan you to confront me and tell me everythin like how you always did last time, you would just tell me every single shit. once i had your love, and i flaunt it. i didn't really appreciate it. i've regret bout wat i've done last time, but's it's too late to realise it now. anyways, i've been in kl for 4 weeks ed, and i still haven't even return to the SHIT HOLE. i've been staying with all my lovely frens tat willingly to let me stay with them. i've been bothering every single one of them. i've been eating alot of mcd's lately. actually it's like 4weeks straight. i've been to summer splash and UVnation. i had tonnes of fun there with all my frens. i went to cheer 2007 too. meet up with tonned of people there.

anyways. straight to the point, i hope i can get a glimpse of how you're feeling. when ever you need someone, i'm just a call away from you. i think you need some space to think bout wat you actually want. hope you don't hide anymore stuff from me and lie to me anymore-.- and hope u're doing great now. anyways, i'm missing you tonnes hunn. mwakxzz, lovess<3>

OHHH, AND CRYSTAL WILL BE BACK IN LIKE FEW HOURS TIME:] YAYY, CAN'T WAIT TO SEE HER..

a shot of broken heart that is chase with fear.

no matter what i have to do, i'll wait for you<3>

2007-05-19T08:11:00.000-07:00

rhema ask me to blog, so yeah, i decided to blog den:] slept till 4 in the afternoon today. woke up, came online, chit chat, ladiidaa, den suddenly i got tis phone call, i've been told tat hong n lian got ROBBED yesterdayy nite at bu7. the stupid freaking guard saw wat happen also don wanna help-.- lian's like having like a trauma now, due to wat happen yesterday. i hope she's okayy now. both of them lost everythin, even hongs carr weiih. CARRR. haih. stupid indians fuckerrr..!!! oh well.. den after tat, chit chat again, went for diinner with mummy:] came back home, played the impossible game thingy, and the zombie game, omg i DIE LIKE HELL WEIIH..!! oh well, i'm just gonna stuck to my SOLITAIRE:] i'm damn good in it:] i'll never diee:] heheh

note for NICC n RHEMAA : FIIIIIIIISSHHBAAL.. LMAOOO.

ahahahahhahahahaha:]

oh oh, and nicc, wen you need me next time, just call or text me or wat so ever larr:] i'll be right there in a blink of an eye:] heheheh

2007-05-17T02:09:00.000-07:00

sorryy bout the random post, i was ask to blog, so yeahhh..
i wonder wat happen to my MAM weiih, she's full of randomness today, started of bout she wanan meet a GHOST, n them she wanna be a teacher:s i think it's because we've been talking bout "HIM" to much, tat's y she's going all crazyy noww. oh well, i'm gonna continue solitaire-ING n stonnnneee-.-

and wait, now she say she wanna start CRYINGGG:s

<3 baiii..

2007-05-14T01:20:00.000-07:00

finally i'm back to the shit hole after one whole month of bumming around, meeting up with love ones, b'day parties, working for ck for fun, genting, mardigras, karaoke, clubbing, dancing, double daring each others, n tonnes more. i'm gonna keep it sort coz i'm real tired to blog bout freaking 30 days weiih. wen i reach KL, the 1st person i saw was PIN PIN, he came to pick me up in the lrt station, took a cab headed to ou n fooos:] after tat, me, mandy, yausuen, peggy, ck, joyce, ken, yvonne, set lian n chun hong headed to GENTING to celebrate yau suen's b'day, we bought a choc banana cake for her. we had lotsa fun day nite tho:]

the familyy:]

the black gang.

the white gang.

brothers:]

sisters:]

everyone was like one pair one pair, me n mandy was like single for the nite. oh well, let the pic do the talking larrr:]

1st couple: yau suen n peggy<3

2nd couple: ck n joyce<3

3rd couple: susu n charles<3

4th couple: chun hong n set lian<3

me: single for the nite-.-

mandy: single for the nite tooo-.-

after tat we headed to some karaoke place in genting hotel ther, the food arrive n sutff, they had the best chicken wing ever weiih. not kidding.

siu kai yek.

fries.

random piccs:]

the bufday cake:]

susu curi makan.

i donno wtf we're doin, but yeahh.

lol.

lmao.

rofl.

rhema's b'day surprise at royal bintang:]

me n nana took like god noes how long to take to plan tis thinggy, but some ppl seems to hates it much, but oh well, who cares bout them lar. me, nana, rhema, wan ru, jlo, melvin, ronald had tonnes to joy n laughter.

1st jian hao blindfolded rhema all the way from cineleisure to royal bintang.

the bomb weiih:]

jian hao n rhemaaaaa

i don noe who took tis picc weiih:s

me n lynnn:]

everyone enjoying the pizzaa.

LOL.

jian hao n nana:]

nana, tall freak, rhemaa:]

around 1something everyone left, only left me, nana, rhema n wan ru only. den after tat we tried opening the 21 yeas old chivas bottle n the v.s.o.p but half way openingn the cork broke in to half. so we have to call the bartender from royal bintang hotel to help us open it up:] after 20minutes, he manage to open it, but there's still some cork in the drink tho, who care. an hour later, jlo, melvin n ronald came over to drink:] our mission is to get RHEMA TIFFANY drunk:]

nana just like to take a pic of me without me noticing

melvin n ronald concentrating on the fruit game:]

cards

5 minutes after started drinking, rhema was still okay okayy

10 minutes later she like cannot stand it anymore.

15minutes later. GG. ahhaha

in the end, everyone was kinda drunk..:]

i slept around 5 something, nana, jlo, wan ru n melvin went for breakfast. everyone woke up around 11 something, wash up, pack over stuff, n headed home. the room was freaking messy. kesian all those cleaner there weihh. lol.

cant stop thinking of you..

oh yeahh, n i did work at juice works for around like 2dat i think:s coz i was sooo freaking bored, so i decided to work for ck for FOC:] it's kinda tiring working there tho, but its real fun:] i got learn how to cut all kinds of fruits. susu even come n work with us for FOC to:] among all fruits, the hardest was cutting tat stupid pineapple weihh. i hate cutting it so much. pftss. i love the body builder from juice works, it's the bomb weiih:] even su also likes it, actually everyone likes it larr:] the worst part working at juice works is the time wen you need to wash the stupid longkong aka dunjent(i donno how to speel lar) weih. omgness, the smell of it is like hell weih. yerr.. i almost faint wen i smell the smell coming out from there.

ck cut the left pineapple n i cut the one on the right. look how ugly is mine weiih..-.-

i went over to ming wei's party also, i went to his house early to help him out packing all those stuff. he pick me up from rhema's house tho. den after tat me n him went ou to get some stuff, he meet up with his fren's so i went over to osc to meet up with the usual ppl:] hong n set lian had some argument so i ask to follow me over to the party for awhile coz i don wan her to be all alone in ou. so yeahh. we took a cab there. i get to meet all the long lost frens. everyone as there. everyone single one of them. i got so many hugs on tat da, some of them i don even noe them but they noe me:s how weird. den after tat i wen talk talk with some gurls, smoke few sticks, den headed back to osc again. foos n foos, played king stayed, me n su was like owning all the guys asses:] i've been sleeping around in kl. i've slept in rhema's house, su's, ck's, cosmo's, royal bintang:], mandy's n siang ming's house. i've been kick down the bed from ck, su stuff some chicken to my face n jump around n scream to wake me up, sleeping with the light on whole nite, been bitten by su's dog for like a thousand times while i was sleeping-.-. i've meet up with everyone so far, hope i didn't left anyone out:s i still remember there was once me, abby, mandy n susu was headed to diva in ou, suddenly we bum into ys n peggy, den suddenly, den mich n her neighbors n jean n gang, wat a small world ey, everyone was like in diva:] AND FINALLY I GET TO EAT MY BBQ PLLAZA. went with su, mandy, and abby:] anyways, i've been hanging at mcd's center point alot, specially with abby n mandy. we've been talking bout lotsa crap, we tried stealing siang ming's car without him noticing, but planned failed coz he say abby driving he car waving to meee. we're been talking alot bout "GOBLIN'S SON". i donno tat's he's tat scary. me, abby, mandy n ming made up tis real funny story, i'll blog bout it one day if i feel like it larr. anyways, ming has a real nice ass, lmao.

oh yeahh, n i've been through the most embarrassing moment in my whole fucking life, i ask a guy, A GUY from his signature-.- everyone in osc saw me asking tat guy for his signature, n everyone starting asking me was i okay or something, m i sick, did someone brainwash me or something, ladiidaaa. i got it for my fren btw, coz she really think tis guy is hot, so yeahh:] after wen i got his signature, i called my fren to come over to osc, i gave her the signature tat was sign on a resit, she almost like had a heart attack weiih:] she was like on her knees the whole time n cant stop saying thank you n hugging me:] oh well, s long s she's happy:] i'll do anything for you guys out there just to put up a smile on ur face:]

anways, i'm real tired now, haven't been sleeping for 2days coz we're like stoning at mcd's the whole time n ming's house too. i'll never ever forget wat happen in the whole month wen i'm in kl. miss you guys all weiih. but actually the one is miss the most is YOU. i hope YOU noe tat, i'll always wait for YOU no matter wat:]

it's just you and me:]

2007-04-13T02:31:00.000-07:00

school was kinda fucked up todayy. my whole freaking class made my class teacher cry weiih. it was damn scary the moment wen she starts tearing. the whole class was like *sileent*. some more she's like sick. she can't get pist ot emo n stuff, of not she'll faint coz he has tis heart sickness. so yeah. we felt damn bad weiih.. school ends at 12, parent came n pick me up, den suddenly wen i'm in the car, my mummy passed me tis letter. ahah. lol. surprise surprise, i got a letter from KL weiih.. from someone:] ahhaha. yupyup. went lunch, came home, bath.. chit chat with rhema, nana, nic, crys, jakie ladiidaa.. n tat stupid VIC in a stupid $#@$#@ CUNT weiih.. argghh. oh well, cbb bout him ed larr.. die die larr. lol.
n omg larr.. till now i'm still like playing solitaire. i'm damn lifeless weiih.. lol.

nana. rhema. nicc

P.S: I MISS YOU GUYS so badly larr.. i'm happy tat i have 3of thesee real lovellyy babee:]

2007-04-12T05:23:00.000-07:00

i get to skip todayy. woke up at 10somethin, den mummy drag me out to settle some stuff bout my car. my god, have to wait for at least a month only we can get the car weiih. damn long. but i cbb also larrr. so yeah. after tat went to the mall coz mummy wanted to shop. she bought like hell lotsa stuff. she bought like 5tops n 3pants i think. my daddy got undies n i only got a traveling bag n a box of HONEYSTART.. how saddening weiih. i was looking for my moneyclip coz i wanted one since ages, but tis shit hole doesn't sell them.-__- HOW CAN THEY NOT SELL MONEYCLIP WEIIH... the saleswomen say that only have it in KL-__-" rite..! stupid shit hole. me n my dad was like so pist of at my mum. coz we're like waiting for her n stuff, n she's like taking her own sweet farking time. so yeah, me n my daddy went yamcha at some weird place. it look so empty wen we went in.. it's totally EMPTY weiih. we're like the only customer. btw. it's called NOONE cafe tho. lol.. wat a name weiih. no wonder no one goes there. yupyup, few hours later, finally mummy is done with her shopping, headed home, come online. stonee.. drove out to bought ciggies, came back, chat for awhile, stone again, oh yeah, n i played SOLITAIRE:] i noe it's saddening. oh well. 13 MORE DAYSS till rhema's darling b'day:].. CAN'T WAIT.. 2MORE WEEKS I'LL BE BACK TO KL:] YAY.. ladiidaaaa

p.s: i miss you guys larr..:]

2007-04-11T08:31:00.000-07:00

yayy:]
finally exams over.. sat for 4papers to day.. everyone was jumping around like a freaking monkey wen the last paper ends. oh, n yeahh.. a gurl came up to me n ask me out for dinner tis saturday nite, i was like.. errmm.. hmm.. *stone*-_- i barely even noe her.. *randomness*.. freaking weird shit hole people... come home after school, bath den went to take a nap, woke up, plaed SOLITAIRE again-_- had dinner, den tuition. omg, it was like so freaking boring. an our later i can't stand it. i think she can see through my face, so yeah, she brought me yam cha. came home, chat with rhema darling, baby nicc n my LIL BROTHER.. lmfao (p.s: edwin, NO SUCH THING AS FRENS WITH BENEFITS OKAYY.. lol..) you noe wat i'm talking bout edwin-_- mehh, so tired larr. gonna Zzzz now.. buhhbaii..

p.s:yes i noe edwin, frens with benefits do exist-_-

i'm missing ya lots hunn.<3

2007-04-10T23:35:00.000-07:00

*yawn*.. daddy woke me up at freaking 6 in the morning.. 6..! i can't be bothered n went back to sleep. woke up at 7:15, wash up n headed to school straight.. was late again. as usual:) went to class n sit for my bm paper. i barely can open my eyes weiih. after bm, i have english. for the first fucking time in my life i didn't finish my english paper weiih. actually not only me larr, the whole class didn't manage to finished to. we only have an hour to finish our paper.-__- don f*ck. oh well. bell rang, went for recess. bell rang again, went back to class n sat for moral test. half way doin my moral paper, i fell asleep:] den tat fucking cunt sittin next to me keep smacking my table, such a bastard. so i woke up since i can't sleep, continue doin my paper. done doin it. pass it up, den wen bumming around the school with some frens. came back to class, saw tis gurl crying-_- went over to her table, ask her wat happen. i barely can even hear wtf she was saying coz she keep crying non stop. few minutes later, she clam down ed, den she explain wat happen, she told me tat she having family probs n stuff. at first i tot she lost her virginity or somethin, so yeah. den she said she has this sickness called MALTIPLES KEROSIS. i never heard it in my life ever, she said tat tis sickness is really rare, one in a billion people only get it, n she say she wan the unlucky wan. so yeah. den i was like wtf.-_- well i think it's really fake, she just wan some attention from people so yeahh.. even some ppl say she's like a attention seaker or somethin. n she said she's gonna die, ladiiidaa, blahh blaahh blahh. so i ask her to clam down again, she starts cring non stop agian. n yeah. i just ask her stop thinking so negative, you wont die, so just shut up n stop crying. lol. i noe i sound kinda mean, but yeahh, she stop. lol. bell rang, woohooo, went home, came online, played SOLITAIRE agaiiin. suppose to go tuition todayy, but it was canceled:] lol.. yay. laddiiidaa. that's bout it for 2daay.

<33

2007-04-08T00:00:00.000-07:00

happy birthdayyy nicoleee

happy sweet 16 birthdayy hunn:] wish ya all the best. hope all ur wishses come true. really hope that u're ere rite now, so we could all celebrate with you.. but u're like all the way THERE.. so yeahh. anywayz...

XoxooxxoX love ya toneess.. miss you lots<33

2007-04-07T02:00:00.000-07:00

good friday..:]

i was freaking late for school again. teacher made me pick 80.. freaking 80 pieces of rubbish.. i didn't even give a damn bout it, just walk off n head to my class straight. class was boring. me n some of my frens walk around school. at 12, bell rang, went home and took a bath, "daddy" called n ask for my house add. they reach ere fews minutes later.. they purposely came all the way ere to have a good friday with me.. sooooo sweettt:] i was soo happpyyy to see them. they meet my parents. talk whole lotsa stuff bout mee.. i wonder wat dod they say-__- after tat, "daddy", his wife and me headed ti the beach for tea. chit chat abit, went around the shit hole. den around 6 went back to my house n pick up my parent den after that went for dinnerr.

crabs:] *yummmyyy

frogs. :s

:]

mummy n daddy

"mummy" n "daddy"

after dinner, we head straight to the CHURCH.. my godd. i was like stoning the whole time in church weiih.. it was sooo soooo boring. i bet "daddy" n "mummy" is gonna fall asleep any second coz the service was in chinese n they couldn't really understand wat was they saying..
around 10somethin, finally the service was over. we went to some place to yam cha n chit chat.. i was craving for ciggies so badly, so i took a stick from "daddy" n went to a corner to smoke.
around 11somethin, "daddy" fetch us home. i was so freaking tired. reach home den straight away become a pigg. ZzzZZzz

<3

2007-04-05T08:44:00.000-07:00

emoNESS...

well, seems like EMOness kinda hit lots of people on march n april... arghhh.. stupidd.. go away.. come again next life or somethin. i don wanna see everyone goin all emo n stuff. even i am emo-ing now:( pftss.. haih.. oh well.. hope everyone is doin alrite lar.

and somethings on the back of my head is bothering me so so so freaking badlyy..

i miss you larr.!!..!

2007-04-05T07:34:00.000-07:00

yayy:]

guess who's in tis shit hole noww weiihh. someoen is ere to visit mee:] uncle kam ming n anuty chet ling is ere larr. my god daddy n mummy:] i just receive a call from them, they just reach, they just check in the hotel. gonna meet me after school tomorroww.. can't waitt. how swweeett of them to come ere n have a good fridatt with me. he's gonna bring me to eat crabss:] but i thing, i have to go church with them after tat for the good friday service.. pftss.. oh well.. can't wait can't waitt... gonna post soem pics tommorrow.. if i can larr:s lol.. and omg.. JESUssS.. rhema.. please don get sick again larr. oh well, mayb i need to find someone to replace me to take care of her for me tho:s anywayz.. i'm gonna pray for you everynite kayy. hope you feel better.. nana.. how r u larr... miss you larr.. n my MAM too larr:]

<3

2007-04-04T01:09:00.000-07:00

school was really boring todayy.. all the teacher didn't really teach... so yeah, me n some on my class mate was like camhore-ing all the waayy:] lol.. and, arrgg.. my god. i got kena BIRD SHIT on me in school todayy.. freaking birds donno how to aim n shit properlyy.. i got it right behind my backk. pftss.. tis is like the second time i kena BIRDS shit on me tis year.. stupidd.. oh well, mayb it's goodluck or somethin.:s

anywayzz.. i miss you larrr....<3 haihz...

2007-04-02T07:17:00.000-07:00

i miss you guys so badly larrr...

omg.. i can't stop thinking bout these 3little babes:]
they're real SPECAIL to mee. these 3gurls each of them even left a mark on me weiih. mmhmm, they're real SPECAIL:] i'm like thinking of them every single freaking day in tis shit hole.
so yeah....

introducing....*drum roolll*

my little sista:] TRIIINA<3
isn't she CUUtee..
(hey guys out there. you guys betta not bully her ey.. or not.. u'll payyyy!)

my most lovable MAM:] rhemaaa<3
(i work for her, for FREEEE okayy:])

last but not least...

my darliing NiiiColE<3
love ya tonees

miss you guys everyday, every minute, every second weiiih:]
mwahzxzxz.. XoxxoXO<33

2007-04-02T03:34:00.000-07:00

this post is just for

PIMPPY SNAIIL:]

isn't she bEaUtiful..

yeah. she's like my entertainer.. she always make me laugh so much..
i haven't meet her in real life b4, but she a real sweetiee..
she have done me a real big favor on valentine day:]
i owe you big time hunn;]

and yeah. ZOMG... tis is like her so call PIMPLE that can ever spot on her face EVER..

and yeahh. JENNY.. remember that you still owe me your RETAINERS, COOKIEES and my WHISKEY:] heheh.. love ya tonnes. miss ya. XOXOXxo

2007-04-02T02:22:00.000-07:00

how can i tell you,
this feeling i have for you...
no matter what i do,
still it wont shine through...
no matter how i try,
still there's this pride...
which keep on stopping me,
and making me unfree...
in expressing this feeling i hide,
is the last thing i want to try...
coz there's this fear within' me,
that i fail and cry...
i want to be straight and simple,
i want to be nice and true...
so i made this poem to tell you,
that i really LOVE you...

s2 you're always in my heart

2007-04-01T22:39:00.000-07:00

<3

i miss the days when you were here...
i miss your voice that i hear everyday...
i miss warmth of your kiss...
i miss you smile on your lips...
you're the one that i miss...
you're the one that i wish...
i hope one day we'll be fine...
i hope one day you'll be mine again...

2007-03-30T22:06:00.000-07:00

31 march 2007..

omg.. mum woke me up around 8:30am to help her pluck grass at the backyard. gooodness, i couldn't even bother n went back to sleep. woke up around 10somethin, den teman mummy to the near by mall to get some stuff. suddenly around 10:45. SOON HOE n frens called me, they were in the hospital. they call me to inform me that VICTOR CHAI had into an accident last nite, he was with 5of his other frens in the car, so all togather 6of them. the driver name called SIMON somethin, he was driving at the spped of 180, suddenly out of no where, tis little stupid kancil pop out from no where, the SIMON guy tried to avoid. that's wen he lose control of the car, the breaks didn't help, the car spin around n overturn. VICTOR was the unlucky one coz he was sitting in the middle of the backseat. after SOON HOE tell me bout all these, i tot it was like a APRIL FOOL joke or somethin. i keep asking him to cut it of n don fool around with me bout tis kinda thing. but he say it's all true. he sounded real serious, he ask me to call SU, MANDY n gang if i don believe. after den, i receive calls from su, peggy n gang.. it's the truth.. everyone was crying so badly in the hospital. every single one of them was there except for me coz i'm freaking stuck in tis SHIT HOLE. 12:31, i got a call from a fren in the hospital, he told me that VICTOR just pass away. i can hear everyone in the background was screaming n crying hoping that VICTOR will come back to life. i can't stop tearing, i was begging my mum to let me go back KL, but can't coz my mum is gonna b home alone coz my dad went somewhere n he'll only b back on tuesday. i really wish VICTOR didn't die.. i really miss you VICTOR, everyone LOVE you. you can't ust leave us just like that. YOU ALWAYS BE IN OUR HEART<3

we love you vicctorrr<3

WE ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU<3

VITOR CHAI [31/3/2007]

2007-03-29T00:52:00.000-07:00

I'veeee.............

-smoke a cigarette
-smoke a cigar
-done drugs
-kiss a girl
-kiss a guy
-drank alcohol
-been in love
-been dump
-been shoplifted
-been an a fist fight
-been snuck out of a parent's house
-had feeling for someone who didn't have them back
-made out with a stranger
-had a crush on an older person
-lied
-carry someone
-skipped school
-seen someone/ something die
-been on a plane
-thrown up from drinking
-eaten sushi
-taken pain killers
-love/like someone right now
-laid on my back n watched cloud shapes go by
-had a tea party
-flown a kite
-built a sand castle
-gone puddle jumping
-played dress up
-jumped into a pile of leaves
-cheated while playing a game
-been lonely
-fallen asleep at school/work
-use a fake/someone else's ID
-watched a sun set
-been tickled
-been robbed/vandalized
-been misunderstood
-won a contest
-been suspended from school
-been in a car/motorcycle accident
-eaten a whole pin of ice cream in one night
-had deja vu
-danced in the moonlight
-hate the way i look
-witnessed a crime
-questioned my heart
-squished barefoot through the mud
-been lost
-swam in the ocean
-felt like i was dying
-cried myself to sleep
-played cops and robbers
-sang karaoke
-pay a meal with coins only
-done something tat i told myself tat i wouldn't
-made prank phone calls
-kissed the rain
-watch the sun set with someone i care/cared bout
-blown bubbles
-made a bonfire on the beach
-crashed a party
-gone roller skating/blading
-had a wish come true
-got my tongue stuck to a pole/freezer/ice cubes
-kissed a fish
-worn a opposite sex clothes
-sat on a rooftop
-screamed at the top of my lungs
-talk on the phone more den 3hours
-stay up all night
-climb a tree
-been in a tree house

2007-03-26T03:53:00.000-07:00

WAT a bring day in school todayy weiih.. almost die of boredomm. at least i get to ponteng marching, or not i'll die under the freaking HOTT sun.. pftss... and why is everyone emooING.. oh wells, mayb emoNESS has hit everyone tis month.. even i'm emoING noww.. anywayy, hope rhemaaa will get well soonn. i don wan her to get all sickk again wen i'm backk.. i miss you guyss.. everyone. mwahzxzx<3

2007-03-24T09:30:00.000-07:00

All the sweet memories that will never be eraceee...

oh welll... i really misses you guyss so badlyy.. XoxoxXo. i'll be leaving tis SHIT HOLE soon.. i'll find you guys out to yam cha as soon as i'm back to kayyelle eyy...:]

me n darling nicc<3

it's just you and me.s2

lil su n yau suen..

me n jade(our daughter)

yeahh. u own me..(melaka resort)

ck's b'day..

me, Jlo, rhema (in the ferry on the way to pulau ketam:])

elvin with a condom

nicc n jade<3(melaka>

rhema(mam) n jade:]

nic put make up on me...

crash at my place. hehe.

lynn n nicc in the aiport on the day she left.

outside senctuary..

freee hugs anyone.? (laundryy)

nana n me. (1utama's rooftop)

me n nana.(redbox)

lixian, rhema, nicc. (ferry, pulau ketam)

rhema n nana<3

me, nicc, mam(rhema), Jlo

maisonn........

*stonee*

over at edmund's place.. everyone was real drunk.

me n Jlo.(genting)

me..:]

hartamasssss..

my b'day.(duta vista)

me. trina. rhema. drunken elvin(duta vitsa)

melvin with his alice in wonderlans boxers

me..*stone*

osc.. some of them was drunk.:p

meggie me anyone? [after drinking at laundry n senctuary]

me n ck.(bbq plaza)

2007-03-24T09:19:00.000-07:00

stupid stupid stupid elviNNn....

Pftss.. don fucking remind bout it elvin.. fu*K, Knn, CbK $!#$@@@$#@$#@....... i just over it n you brought it back up, and stop fucking playing CS. oh wells.:].. ptfsss.. i'm still feeling emptyy larr.. oh wellz, hopefullyy i'll feel better soon. i really miss you real badly boo<3.>

2007-03-24T01:57:00.000-07:00

Silent tears
falling to the ground,
They seem to belong to me.
An empty shell
standing in the rain,
Wishing you'd come back to me.

Sleepless nights
tossing and turning,
Haunted by the ghost of you.
Will this pain
ever go away,
The pain of losing you......

-you're my one and only-

2007-03-22T22:15:00.000-07:00

I'll Be

The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath.
And emeralds from mountains thrust toward the sky
Never revealing their depth.
Tell me that we belong together,
Dress it up with the trappings of love.
I'll be captivated,
I'll hang from your lips,
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above.

I'll be your crying shoulder,
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older,
I'll be the greatest fan of your life.

And rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed.
You're my survival, you're my living proof.
My love is alive -- not dead.
Tell me that we belong together.
Dress it up with the trappings of love.
I'll be captivated,
I'll hang from your lips,
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

I'll be your crying shoulder,
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older,
I'll be the greatest fan of your life.

And I've dropped out, I've burned up, I've fought my way back from the dead.
I've tuned in, turned on, remembered the things that you said.

I'll be your crying shoulder,
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older,
I'll be the greatest fan of your...
I'll be your crying shoulder,
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older,
I'll be the greatest fan of your life.

The greatest fan of your life....
Greatest fan of your life.

2007-03-22T05:06:00.000-07:00

hmmm.....
damnn hott weii.. i'm like dying ere riteee nowww...
and omggg.. i just found out that my ex school pengetauu(puan NORSHAM) has frenster weiihh.. n hann's havingg a wett dreamm bout vic. how gay.. boys.. ladiidaaaaa..

2007-03-21T23:22:00.000-07:00

I was late to school todayy, pftss. den there's tis stupid BIATCHH teacher just suddenly scream my name out of no where during the perhimpunan, i was like WTF*stone*.. the stupid teacher cought me coz of my nailz. Haihh, i'm force to cut my precious nails. anywayz, i head back to class after that. There's like no teacher coming in to my class for the whole day, YAyy.. Me n a bunch of my frens just sit at the end of the class the whole time talking bout craps and bulls.. Then after that we start talking bout our love ones, frens, yadayadayadaa.. omg, one of my class mate's boyfren pass away on the 9 of march coz of an accident, some fella bang him with a car i think? My fren have been crying like crazzyy after since her boyfren pass awayy.. We were all trying to comfort her n making her stop crying. After that, my stupid class monitor which is a guy, i don even know when and how did he managed to saw my boxers that i was wearing todayy, he keep convincing me to give him my boxerr. Lmao. i know it's cutee, But it's mine, so too badd. But i promise him that i'll get a new one for him during his birthday tho:] Came home, stonee for awhile, then i did my moral project, 4folio, and 8pages of essay and i've to do my english assigment wish is like 20 pages longg. CRAZYYness. anyways got to go off now..<3

2007-03-21T06:37:00.000-07:00

LaaDiiiiiDaaa....

oh wellzz.. i don even know why i start a blog anywayz, mayb i just can spit out all the shit that i feel in my life. anywayz, my life is pretty sad, I use to stay in KL, but my family hace shifted me to a SHIT HOLE(lalaland), fren's n loves one is in KL, n my lil baby is in overseaa.. yeah, i know life is pretty fark up, but oh well, look in the brightside people.:] ladiidaaa.. got to go noww, mum's making lotsa noices. buhbuiii..!!

2007-03-21T06:27:00.000-07:00

Why is it over.?

why should it be over.. it can never be over yet. i haven't get to show u how much i do love you.
why can't you just give it another try but just given up just like that. you wouldn't know how much u mean to me. I'm willing to do anything for you. you're the exception I'm willing to make.. I love YOU n only YOU. Hope you know that..<3

2007-03-21T06:16:00.000-07:00

-It's not over-

My tears run down like razorblades and no,
I'm not the one to blame: it's you or is it me?
And all the words we never say come out and now we are all ashamed.
And there is no sense in playing games, when you done all you can do.

But now it's over, it's over. Why is it over?
We had the chance to make it. Now it's over,
It's over. It can't be over. I wish that I could take it back, but it's over.

I lose myself in all these fights; I lose my sense of wrong and right.
I cry, I cry. I'm shaking from the pain that's in my head.
I just want to crawl into my bed and throw away the life that I led.
But I won't let it die. But I won't let it die.

But it's over, it's over. Why is it over?
We had the chance to make it. Now it's over,
It's over. It can't be over. I wish that I could take it back.

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart. Don't say this wont last forever.
You're breaking my, you're breaking my heart. Don't tell that we will never be together.
We could be over and over, we could be forever.

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart. Don't say this wont last forever.
You're breaking my, you're breaking my heart. Don't tell that we will never be together.
We could be over and over, we could be forever.

It's not over. It's not over, it's never over, unless you let it take you, it's not over,
It's not over, it's not over, unless you it break you. It's not over.